Who I am:
1. A stranger in a strange land (I consistently live and work in a country where I am not a citizen and am not speaking my mother tongue).
2. Integrity is a core practice. (I practice what I preach. I walk the talk.)
3. I believe we are all uniquely creative and whole, we've just lost our way in the noise of the modern world. (Therefore everything we hold true is possible.)
4. Nature is the key - to living and healing.
5. Art is a channel for healing.
What I bring :
I grew up in a bi-cultural family (Austrian+American), as a twin, in Alaska.
Being a twin gave me a life of never questioning my sense of being loved, but growing up somewhat isolated and between cultures meant I wasn't sure where I belonged. I went through stages of being deeply born-again, going to every church service at the Baxter Road Bible church, to rejecting all of the Christian dogma. Even before my trips to Asia, it felt wrong that you had to earn love - that it was conditional.
I went to Japan for the first time when I was 18. From there I found Taiwan, and my exposure to what is spirituality and how we humans organize and frame reality became very multifaceted. I also experienced being a minority. I was humbled and validated simultaneously. A whole culture of people programmed to put harmony first. To see nature as containing energy and spirit. To value connection and relationship above all else. All my programming about - everything - was turned on it's head. No wonder my family was completely confused and shocked when I returned.
This opened me up for other ways of knowing - beyond scientific evidence, rational thought, and western mental models. And it's been a life long journey into exploring how to expand beyond my own limits, cultural programming, and mental models since. Through the study of Zen, Tai Chi, Reiki, various meditation techniques, breathwork and then plant medicine. I have participated in 5 ayahuasca ceremonies, and practice micro dosing with mushrooms. These experiences accelerated my courage to live my truth and stand in my power. And on my journey I continually meet others who are suffering and seeking something similar.
The greatest benefit my exploration into plant medicine has given me was courage. The courage to ask for help. The courage to do something unconventional. The courage to speak up for what felt true to me.
Plant medicine ceremonies are not the only way to see beyond our own conditioning, or to heal trauma, but for those who feel called to them and are able to participate in a well run ceremony, they are a catalyst to growth and healing. They are the entry way to deep healing - though the real healing begins afterwards.
Many of our experiences get lost in the noise of the modern world and we end up going back for more ceremonies that may not be necessary to make progress.
The best ceremonies and retreat centers offer at least some form of integration, either through a group process talk or one-on-one counseling afterwards. However, many people need an anchor when they go back to "real life" so that they can bring their deeply personal insights and translate them into living differently.
I have been able to do that for myself - leaving unhealthy relationships in both personal and professional arenas, in order to rebuild a circle of friends and colleagues that match my positive, caring vibration. Claiming a life of deeply satisfying work and trust in the future. As a certified coach I have the tools and methods to support others who want this too.
The world needs more trauma aware and spiritually conscious souls, now more than ever. And I want to be in service of speeding that evolution up. Let's work together to get you there faster.
"What does your logo mean?"
My response, "When you look at it, what do you feel? What is the sensation you have when looking at it?"
One answer: Everything has an origin and is both moving towards greater expansion and towards it's own beginning. Where are you on your journey? Here is a container to keep you safe while you explore.
I am not a psychologist, but I can help you find one for mental health support in tandem.
Our work together is an energetic exchange. What you put in, you are guaranteed to get in return.